Holding On To My Pain

This will be the day that

I will close my eyes and ears

From the evil of the world

These are my last hours

Before I will let it go

I'm so close yet so far

One step behind, one more to go

I'm almost there

I'm still alive and grinding on

I still believe

Days go by

And I'm holding on to my pain

Keeping my eyes away

From what makes me weak, fragile and small

This is my time, I own it

Until I crash and fall

I'm keeping it all inside

I am in control

Or that's what I keep on saving

I am a wreck, am I alive?

One step behind, one more to go

I'm almost there

I'm still alive and grinding on

I still believe

Days go by

And I'm holding on to my pain

Keeping my eyes away

From what makes me weak, fragile and small