Mellowed

Tunnel vision is slowly setting in.

Blocking out what should be letting in,

Letting in. 11 years of seeing through alcoholic eyes.

Nothing here at all but lows disguised as highs.

Days I don't remember now, fitting in and blacking out, falling up and spiraling down and down and then

It's down again, and up again.

I've mellowed but it's taken so much time.

Never needed to think that

I was thin. (Anyway) would

I wish it on you now.

I'm so ****** up.

Lay down pacified and completely compromised.

Nothing left inside but memories of lies.

Days I don't remember now, of fitting in and falling out falling up and spiraling down and down and then

It's down again, but up again.

I'm sorry but it doesn't matter now. 11 years of seeing through alcoholic eyes

Nothing here at all but lows disguised as highs

Days I don't remember now fitting in and falling out falling up and spiraling down and down and then

I've mellowed but it's taken so much time so much time, so much time, so much time...