歌词
Smokt up a pack of Marlboro at this noon
午后，空了的M记
Sit around and there aint no one else in this room
房间空无一人
No class today ye I'm feeling so cool
又是一个人的假期
Got my headphones on see what I'm bout to do
那正好随便写点东西
I hate being out there hearing all the noises
不喜欢车马喧嚣所以选择足不出户
Hate being shy and awkward while I'm changing faces
受不了在社交场合时的力不从心
Hate talking with people they dont know what Im saying
不好与人交谈，因为无话可说
Leave me alone Its just me and my craziness
还是自干自活逍遥自在
Ye smkn alone
一人恰
I love the feeling when I alone and
美滋滋
Music playing round my head its so high
音乐在颅外缠绕的感觉无人能知
I s alone and d alone and think of crazy things alone
恰啥都自己恰
I aint not that social type of guy I just know
社交对我来说太难了
I see beauty I see peace
这是属于我的寂静与美好
when the ashes falling down like
尘埃落地
leaves from the tree
落叶归根
like a dream
人生如梦
and indeed
讲道理
Imma need moments just like this to keep me more legit
自闭是我人生中的小确幸
to be another self-hatred bit complaining bout my week
是我整理内心情绪的契机
Used to be weak
小时候我是个怂包
Used to get home after bully and think about why they were mean
被人欺负了就知道哭哭
Figured it out
历经成长
But bad days just keep you from breathing
才发现儿时的虚伪懦弱蒙蔽着我的双眼
If you can't just get some relief
让当时的我窒息无力
Now I'm a frk
现在的我依旧不好受
Dreaming bout scary things
噩梦与我常伴
Every night barely sleep
失眠是我的日常
And I'm stuck with these false memories that root in my mind
记忆在情绪的反复撕扯下错综迷离
Now my feelings are sh
最终又反作用并侵蚀着我本已破碎的情绪
I felt like people are gone
人们于我始终若即若离
Brothers and sisters I never had none
我对手足之情不能再陌生
Felt like a nun
感觉活得像出家
Don't have no friends and no fun
无人交心，无人交欢
Being that one on the run
只好成为消极避世者苟延残喘
I've been searching for someone
要是有一个理想的伴侣就好了
that might understand me
一个知心
that keep her love with me
忠诚
that wont never leave me
能伴我走过阴郁的
that may be the one providing the cure for me
或许可以成为我这样可悲的人的归宿的人
so that I wont never lose myself
这样我才不会
In mood when scrd when evil astood
在被坏想法寄生的情绪中迷失自我
Chaos is what I went through
我已深知世俗之事对我潜移默化的同化
I gotta fight with the darkness inside of my mind
这其中的糟粕使我困扰至今
They thrive wherever I'm dived
在我无法控制的潜意识里偷偷生长
I'm tired of facing the issues that happen in life
使我丢失了生活的动力
How bout some funny disguise
于是我批上伪装
I'm standing in spotlight
在无法逃避的聚光灯前
Smiling to everyone like I am alright
装疯卖傻地表演着
I hate being out there hearing all the noises
不喜欢车马喧嚣所以选择足不出户
hate being shy and awkward while I'm changing faces
受不了在社交场合时的力不从心
hate talking with people they dont know what Im saying
不好与人交谈，因为无话可说
Leave me alone Its just me and my craziness
还是自干自活逍遥自在
I hate being out there hearing all the noises
不喜欢车马喧嚣所以选择足不出户
hate being shy and awkward while I'm changing faces
受不了在社交场合时的力不从心
hate talking with people they dont know what Im saying
不好与人交谈，因为无话可说
Leave me alone Its just me and my craziness
还是自干自活逍遥自在
I take my lyrics as mds
我把歌词当作解药
I treat my fans as guests
来听我歌的我都把你们当客人
I write my life as rap
饶舌成为了我唯一的宣泄出口
I wonder when I'll be mad and crashed
这样状态下的我，惧怕有一天我将分崩离析
But they just laughed
但世人只会笑我太疯癫
they just tore my dream in half
笑我痴人说梦
Flick it like cigarette ash
将我认同的价值像烟尘般弹落
They just ripp off my only hope that's left
甚至在我最喜爱的事物上
Seduce me with dough and check
画上zb的正字
Nope, I better stay poor
那么就守好最后的那片贫瘠的土地好了
Road, I'm walking on foot
漫漫长路以吾身求索
Rope, been tied with me tripping me all the way down my lifeless loop
一路以来，数不清的枷锁和缰绳将我绊倒
I was a fool when
让我麻木
I got locked by those guys in school
无力还击霸凌
Got pushed in a diving pool
惧怕又试探着人皮下的阴影
Now I'm rewriting rules
但现在是我改写一切的时候了
I'd fight them biches like Mike would do
将文字化为拳和刃尽数还之
Been fixing my errors and bugs
而这之前的我
They tricked me for thugs
在自身的阴影和魔障下顾影自怜
The voices are still echoing
那些脑子里的垃圾
Still messing me
就算是今日也依然挥之不去
Stil l trynna sneak out the seal when I'm mentally ill
依然在最底的泥潭中涌动
I'd been Abused
伤
I'd been Confused
惑
I'd been Misused
错
I'd been Infused
化
I'd been Accused
罪
But Now I'm Excused
释
I gotta pray for my guilt yeye
我需要为过去的遗恨赎罪
I need some time to pray my guilt
我需要独处的时间
Now It's my time to clean up my guilt and pay for the bill
来将过去被污染的章节洗净
So I might seen a little unfriendly and strange to you
所以你可能会看到一个不太热情友善的怪人
Cuz I ain't gon show you my weakness and fumes
那是因为人性的美好恰恰是我这种人害怕展露的软肋
That's why
这就是为什么
I hate being out there hearing all the noises
不喜欢车马喧嚣所以选择足不出户
hate being shy and awkward while I'm changing faces
受不了在社交场合时的力不从心
hate talking with people they dont know what Im saying
不好与人交谈，因为无话可说
Leave me alone Its just me and my craziness
还是自干自活逍遥自在
I hate being out there hearing all the noises
不喜欢车马喧嚣所以选择足不出户
hate being shy and awkward while I'm changing faces
受不了在社交场合时的力不从心
hate talking with people they dont know what Im saying
不好与人交谈，因为无话可说
Leave me alone Its just me and my craziness
还是自干自活逍遥自在
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