Cold Cruel World

I suffer from depression

Complete depression

Had it my whole life

I have had it so bad that uh...

I had anxiety

Been diagnosed with major depression

Lots of phobias, lots of fears

Anxiety, panic attacks

I had depression before,

I didn't think that

Depression could be so bad[Verse 1:]

Sometimes it feels like the world's on my shoulders

Everything around me closing in, it starts to grow colder

It's like

I'm sitting on death row and waitin' for conclusion

************ts real ****** up, my brains filled with much confusion

Do you know what it is to sit a 3am

With a gun pressed to your temple on your knees prayin'

Or in the bathroom, on the floor, a handfull of pills

Cause the ******' rent's due and you can't pay bills

Have you ever felt the cold grip of death in your heart

I'm talkin' rips right in your cavity and pulls it apart

Ten mother******' seconds just from ending this ************t

Flames rising from the ashes that your about to commit

Have you ever stopped your car somewhere far from everythin'

Sat a half an hour, just thinkin' of a better way

To put your soul to rest and set your mind at ease

Put the barrel in my mouth,

I wanna sleep for all eternity[Chorus:]

Dear cold cruel world why am

I here?I never asked to be alive

Everyday it's just a struggle even to survive

Dear please just wipe away the tears

I'll be better off when

I'm goneIn my own private

Hell and left all alone[Verse 2:]

So many reasons just to leave this ******' planet

Pressure gets to be so much, the way you just can't stand it

People hatin', credit problems, ************ be ******' your friends

A million reasons, circumstances for your soul to transend

Nobody like me,

I'm a loser, parents wish

I was dead

I'm overweight, can't get a date,

I'll turn my walls to red

I lock the door, turn up the music, flip the

T.V. screen

I leave a bloody ******' mess out for my moms to clean

It's to the point that

I can't stand it,

I can't even try to cope

And you don't know me, you can't help me, you can't offer me no hope

It's too late to try and stop it,

I done lost the ******' war

I ain't gonna write no ******' letter, leave my answers on the floor

I'm a do it

I swear, don't even think

I'm even ******' lyin'

Nobody gonna remember me, nobody gonna be cryin'

All alone in my death like

I was in life

Let me take my final breath, they can bury me tonight[Chorus:]

Dear cold cruel world why am

I here?I never asked to be alive

Everyday it's just a struggle even to survive

Dear please just wipe away the tears

I'll be better off when

I'm goneIn my own private

Hell and left all alone[Bridge:]

You won't miss me when

I'm gone(Flames risin', flames risin')

I know you did me so wrong(Flames risin')[Gunshot][Chorus/Outro:]

Dear cold cruel world why am

I here?Flames risin', flames risin'

Dear please just wipe away the tears

Flames risin', flames risin'

Dear cold cruel world why am

I here?(just wipe away, just wipe away)

Flames risin', flames risin'

Dear please juse wipe away the tears(just wipe away, just wipe away)

Flames risin', flames risin'

Dear cold cruel world why am

I here?Flames risin', flames risin'

Dear please juse wipe away the tears

Flames risin', flames risin'