Baxter Avenue

Hol' up

My dad built houses my mom painted pictures

They both gave it up once I came into the picture

Me I'm like them just a fifty-fifty mixture

My mom rode horses she wish I had a sister

I prefer the pen to a hammer or a brush

But I build things up and my imagery is lush

I used to play soccer but I never had to touch

Basketball too but I ain't love it that much

Much of my time's spent lookin' for a rush

Tryna find something to afford me that feeling

I fall in love with girls 'cause they physically appealing

A couple weeks pass and the convos hit a ceiling

I've smoked a few blunts cookies and runtz

Gotten high enough to know it isn't what I want

Met the celebrities seen through the fronts

Dated one girl and I've seen two at once

I ain't upset to be inside for some months

And get back in touch with the person that I was

Know I've given too much of my time to the chase

Tryna get in touch with a person that I lust

So this the perfect time to hang it up

Used to sleep until noon now at nine I'm waking up

More time that I'm inside then the less I want to talk

I don't wanna FaceTime I ain't tryna say "What's up"

Careful with the ways that my time is taken up

Bunch of geeks tryna take the shine away from us

Reaching for critiques and they tryna say I suck

Got me reminiscin' back to a time I gave a

But my skin's gotten thick since then

And my high school crush has done the same thing

So when this blows over and I'm back home

I'ma tell her that I'm really done playin' games

Seven figures in my bank statements

Seven fellas that I'm that stayin' on the same page with

We been shootin' for the stars and our aim's dangerous

Hasn't been a single thing that the gang can't get

My main thing shall remain nameless

Know they ask about her often but I ain't sayin' s**t

There's a level of discretion that I'm maintaining

She don't understand it but she ain't famous

We gon' see who's still around once the game changes

She's a business woman but I got her playing favorites

You ain't rooting for me then I gotta make changes

Ex girls watchin' with a lot of fake pages

A lot of fake pages

My OG showed me what a Plain Jane is

And a bust down is now I got a hankering to spend a few thousand

KY used to take me up to Icebox when he'd get his jewelry cleaned

They would ask if they could help me and I say "I'm just browsing"

Woyne worked at Enterprise Rentals discounted

Ville to the A and back we was putting miles in

Always wondered to myself if I could be a leader of a group

Of brown-skinned boys when I'm not brown-skinned

Certain things they grew up on that they get but I don't get

Differences in how we raised make me feel like I don't fit

Not to mention the distance between our parents' houses

Shared some money with 'em so they know I care about 'em

I'm tryna do it right and figure what a fair amount is

But I fantasize 'bout a day that we all swimming in it

No contracts and we independent

Stay close never start a convo' with "It's been a minute"

'Cause it never will be end of sentence

Nemo that's my right hand guides me through my indecisions

Vodka in my left hand takes away my inhibitions

Way too gone but I'm waking up in mint condition

Ready for whatever got the troops with me in position