Disco Ball

Well it hurt too much to pray for it

So I sold my shit to pay for it

Now I'm ragged and I’m lean

Bearing the dead weight of a dream

But I remember it well and I remember it clear

That moment I said I've gotta get outta here

Singing that Holiday tune

Drinking whisky alone in my room

A drunken train wreck with a sense of direction

Gonna make it outta here despite your affection

Said if I don't break free, then it’ll break me

But the sun doesn't shine in the back of that hall

And everybody scatters when you start to fall

Well if you crack that mirror when you hit the wall

Baby, go and make yourself a disco ball

Let your light scatter and fall

Through it all

When I first started out, people said I was bold

They didn't realize I was running from the fear of getting old

And visions of my future self

With a cigarette hanging out of my mouth

And a hairnet on in some kitchen down south

My potential soaked in gin

Talking about what I could've been

So I sold myself to the American dream

I got a predatory loan with my spirit on lien

They say “you can make it if you try”

Then they'll stand around watching you dying

And I see the luck drying up wherever I go

Vacant windows, foreclosed homes

I may be lost but I am not alone

So if the sun doesn't shine in the back of your hall

And if everybody scatters when you start to fall

Well if you crack that mirror when you hit the wall

Baby, go and make yourself a disco ball

And let your light scatter and fall

Let your light scatter and fall

Through it all