I Could've Been

You never wanted to see me leave this,

I never wanted to stick around.

And there's a rainstorm in my head that

I just can't outrun right now.

I'm faking smiles and stomachs aches

So I can get away.

Sometimes I think that I'm the only

One who feels this way.

The only things holding me back are my own thoughts in my head,

And I can't understand why I can't just move on and get passed them.

It's probably my own fault, and who's to say I can't fix it?

But maybe sometimes life just gets in the way.

I thought that with a change of pace,

That I could get the hang of this.

You're just another something that I can't seem to erase.

I thought that with a change of pace,

That things would start to feel okay again.

I guess I'm never gonna learn,

I guess I'm never gonna learn!

I tried to make it to the ending

Of a book I never read.

I'm relapsing to my old self trying to skip all these steps.

I'm faking smiles and stomach aches

When I start to feel trapped.

It's hard to breathe.

I never thought that I would lie

To the ones who stay close to me.

I thought that with a change of pace,

That I could get the hang of this.

You're just another something that I can't seem to erase.

I thought that with a change of pace,

That things would start to feel okay again.

I guess I'm never gonna learn,

I guess I'm never gonna learn!

Could you tell I wasn't honest? (I could've been, I could've been)

I couldn't be all that you wanted.

Could you tell I wasn't honest? (I could've been, I could've been)

I couldn't be all that you wanted.