Lack of You

Took me two weeks but I fell in love with a forest fire

A silver-tongued boy who would burn me down with my own desires

I was dandelion wishing that he'd be my man

Wanted him in my life

I was making big plans

'Til he ghosted me

And I believe something still haunts me

I want him to want me

My whole heart

All my blood

Even the air is so messed up

Every day

And every night

I can't make it feel all right

I'm f***ed up on you

For the lack of you

I won't try to play tough like I'm Hercules, I ain't apathetic

Its been 4 or 5 years I still write about you, pathetic

I'm still hoping against hope I see you

One day, someday

When the sky blows up

And the sun runs dry

And I'm holding you

And I'm terrified

'Cause it's so far fetched

This prophecy

I'm using to hold on

When you're good and gone

My whole heart

All my blood

Even the air is so messed up

Every day

And every night

I can't make it feel all right

I'm f***ed up on you

For the lack of you

I wanted sky-high mausoleums with both of our names on it

And Roman colosseums with people cheering for the reign of us

'Cause we were Shakespeare love and come-to-Jesus moments

Scientific mumbo jumbo with infinity exponents

And now I'm all f***ed up

And I'd say more but this 5-years-too-late song is enough

My whole heart

All my blood

Even the air is so ****ed up

Every day

And every night

I can't make this s**t all right

I'm f***ed up on you

For the lack of you

Baby, baby, baby

Baby, baby, baby