Lost

If I could measure the distance Between the lightness and the shade I could make sense of this dark And I could find my way It felt like it was raining But only inside my head Waiting in that dark room For her songs to guide my way The world won't listen anymore Not the way that you think it should The rain falls in the same way Like it did when I was young Sitting in that same old room And just sang about love I'm sure if I could see the stars They might shine for me But all I feel is the rain And it soaks me to my skin It seemed like the song played for hours It turned and it turned and it turned And I remember it skipped at the part where she sang about love And I'm still in that room Next to that skipping record I'm still in that room Where the minutes seem like hours The song plays loud It drowns out my pity I remember the day and I remember the hour I remember the day and I remember the hour It's a vice squeezing on my skull I remember the minute and I remember the second And how it came apart so fast These thoughts will last me my whole life These thoughts will plague me my whole life My heart it beats in the same way Beating out of time My hearts stops beating in my sleep