Fumbling

I don't want to stay up fumbling all night

Waiting for something that I can’t control

I was raised to only focus on the ones I love

And it's you now, you know

I walk in alone

And if I would have known that you weren't here

I would have just stayed home

I think you would have smiled when you saw the walls

They’re covered in paisley and cigarette tar

The kind of room where the lights can't get low enough

Oh, but I had you for a second there

My second rate love

And your calm disposition

And now I just feel so unsure

But I don't want to stay up fumbling all night

Waiting for something that I can't control

I was raised to only focus on the ones I love

And it's you now, you know

And I don't want to wake up freaking out, cold sweat

Shaking and sleeping in all my clothes

I was raised to only live for the ones that I hold dear

And it's you now, as well

And it's you now

In my mind we walk home alone

You take everything you can from a 7-Eleven, kick-in a condo door

I watch as you admire the art on the walls

We kiss in the kitchen and you pretend that they’re yours

Leave a card on the counter

And then we walk back home

Oh, but I had you for a second there

My second rate love

And your calm disposition

And now I just feel so insecure

But I don’t want to stay up fumbling all night

Waiting for something that I can't control

I was raised to only focus on the ones I love

And it’s you now, you know

And I don't want to wake up freaking out, cold sweat

Shaking and sleeping in all my clothes

I was raised to only live for the ones that I hold dear

And it's you now as well

I'm always looking for you in a room that you’re leavin'

But I don't want to stay up fumbling all night

Waiting for something that I can't control

I was raised to only focus on the ones I love

And it's you now, you know

And I don't want to wake up freaking out, cold sweat

Shaking and sleeping in all my clothes

I was raised to only live for the ones that I hold dear

And it's you now as well

And it's you now