soft tonic #27

It's hard to know which way to go

When you don't know where you are

And why you're going

Which? when? where? why?

I followed the signs

Pointing down one-way streets

And ended up with nothing

Follow me down

Easier to sit and wait

And wonder

Than to venture on my own now

Wait and do what?

But I know that I can't stay

Forever more inside myself

Imprisoned

Get your **** straight

But it's too late to turn back

All that's left is moving on

Need to pick myself back up

And find a way to carry on

I don't want to let you down

But I can't seem to hold myself up

I can't lift my feet off the ground

When will I ever wake up

It's everything that I worked for

But what does it all mean

Got everything that I deserved

But never what I need

Are you proud of me

'Cause I can't say I am

I don't know who to be

And I still don't have a plan

If I search for something more

I don't know just what I'll find

But I gotta step through that door

And leave this all behind

You guided me throughout all of those years

Down what you thought was the correct path

Now that I'm here, standing at the end

Find that I'm lost, where do I begin

Can my life begin

It's always something that I wanted to say

And I know that things didn't turn out that way

It's always something that I wanted to know

But I'll say one thing and do another

It's not a dead end (It's always something that I wanted to say )

We're not dead (And I know that things didn't turn out that way )

It's not a dead end (It's always something that I wanted to know )

You'll find your way (But I'll say one thing and do another )

I don't want to let you down

But I can't seem to hold myself up

I can't lift my feet off the ground

And will I ever wake up

It's everything that I worked for

But what does it all mean

Got everything that I deserved

But never what I need

I don't want to let you down

But I can't seem to hold myself up

My feet cemented to the ground

When will I ever wake up

It's everything that I worked for

But what does it all mean

Got everything that I deserved

But never what I needed

It's not your dead end.