Healing To Suffer Again

I won't be chained to the earth

I feel cheated, so I cheat myself

I feel defeated, so I defeat myself

I drown my sorrows again and again

Push away and deny this misery

These feelings and instincts remain

I'm struggling to pull myself from my grave.

Let me be the one with the infinite

Let me be the one

Let me be the one with the infinite

I won't be chained to the earth

I just need the will

To suppress the urge

I can't suppress the urge

I've built so many barriers

I'm healing to suffer again

Time has given me no remorse

Spiritually bankrupt

Just give me the grace to oppose this sin

Haunted by the things I've done

Is this guilt and shame the price I pay

I hate myself for this weakness

I won't be chained to the earth.