What Did You Expect?

Six months has been and I'm still sick of everything that makes you smile,

I've been here before,

I'm just hoping this will die down

But I've learned from experience

That love is a risk and I'm just hoping you're hearing this,

So maybe you'll know just how it feels to be sitting here,

Wide awake and far from dreaming

Don't tell me that I'll be fine

My broken bones are caving in,

I feel you crawl beneath my skin,

You went and ****ed this up

'Cuz you couldn't keep your legs shut

And you'll find me burning bridges,

Searching for some sense of distance,

Tearing out post trauma stitches that held me together,

So far gone my mind is racing,

Back and forth I can't stop pacing,

Thinking where we could have been if you'd just braved the weather

**** his car and **** his money,

He might pay for you but he's got nothing

I won't be in sight when you realize that

I might just have been a more stable support,

To the life that you'll build

When he cuts himself short

Don't tell me that I'll be fine

I'm so sick of hoping you're right

Take all I am,

Tear me into pieces,

Deconstruct my bones and tell me you still don't know who I am

You've got some nerve thinking we could be friends,

Well what did you expect...a ****ing compliment?

So take what's left of me,

A broken fragment from before

I guess I'll try to be the best I can without you

I know I'll find myself along this beaten track,

I'll have to let you go

And let these ghosts stay in the past

I guess I'll be fine