To Fall Asleep

Bittersweet remedy - Heal me

I've tried to be everything you need of me

I'm not holding my breath

I know that ruin merely rests

I can feel it pressed against my chest

Like a virus, I've tried to find us

a way out of this hole

With my hands pressed against my nose

I'm trying to be holy, but I still don't feel whole

I'm trying to be holy, but I still don't feel whole

Can't you see that it's haunting me

every night when I try to sleep?

I'm so weak

Burdened by the epiphany that misery's periphery won't let me be

The grass is always greener when you live in black and white

I try to close my eyes

imagine everything's alright

But honey like an arrow

sewn into a quiver

It's in my marrow, it's in my liver

You watch me wilt away like a flower without rain

There's nothing you can do, honey

please just look away

I am nailed to this cross and I must carry it alone

I would ask you to hold my hands

but they're worn to the bone

Can't you see that it's haunting me

every night when I try to sleep?

I'm so weak

Burdened by the epiphany that misery's periphery won't let me be

Bittersweet remedy - Leave me

Its shadow follows me

I try to fall asleep