the sum of the in-between

I’m a wishful thinker

And I’m really good at pretending that I’m fine

And I’m clumsy as ****,

I will straight up forget to love you sometimes

I’m a lightweight drinker

I’m really bad at holding my own hand

And I’m lonely enough,

I will do just about anything that I can

To understand you

And I’m ok with that

I’m a problem-finder

I’m really mean when I feel like you’re leaving me

And I worry too much

Inside my head is nothing but casualties

I’m floating somewhere

But I feel the weight of the places that nobody goes

And I don’t share too much

But if you were a stranger I’d tell you my highs and lows

Are you ok with that?

I’m ok with that

When nothing’s together,

I change like the weather,

My world is ending but then I feel better

I’m not where I thought that I’d be now

But somehow,

I’m ok with that

I’m ok with that

Who I was, who I’ll be

I’m the sum of the in-between