I Wish I Was Dead

Kno:

There's a cloud hanging over me

What's in my head

I can't see

There's a cloud hanging over me

What's in my head

I can't see

Tonedeff:

It seems I'm captive in a carnival

The main attraction

People stand in line for hours, stoked

They pay to laugh

and see me sabotage my charted goal to escape this trap

while reading transcripts of my horoscopes

Then it fades to black

Repeat the pattern till my heart of gold

is stained and cracked

Decreased in value

if I pawned it whole

would I make it back?

The things that matter seem so hard to hold, so I'll face the facts

And leave this planet how I found it

Lone

And embrace the casket

Feel so damaged, that I can hardly cope in a savage world, where the scars reopen at random

If you don't wanna choke, put a bandage over your parted throat

I'm man that's on his own and I can't get over these obstacles

And it adds a sting that the common folks are this adamant to think god's a hoax

And I'm outta hope

Though I'm strong I don't wanna live with the strain

No positive notes, no prospect glowing to give me the strength

I simply revisit the day that misery came

And, I wait for the light at the end of the tunnel, until it hits me

That it was a train

Kno:

There's a cloud hanging over me

What's in my head

I can't see

There's a cloud hanging over me

What's in my head

I can't see

I can feel my blood circulate the whole of my body

Cause there's holes in my body, like a blow from a shotty

I'm assuming it probably, cause the hospitals got me

I get up off the gurney and I am certainly wobbly

But it doesn't concern me that I am fervently nauseous

I'm not overly cautious, I just don't know what caused it

So I'm talking to doctors, asking where is my family

Or who was it that brought me, or who was it that shot me

Cause I'm hurt pretty badly, but my memory's shoddy

And nobody will help me, so I'm wobbling oddly

To the front of the lobby so maybe someone will spot me

But my face is in pieces maybe they don't recognize me

Now I'm just realizing, as I open my pocket

That my phone is inside it, so I'm frantically dialing

Trying to call my fiancé, maybe she's trying to find me

But I hear ringing behind me, and it strikes me as odd

I turn around as she walks up to finish the job

Tonedeff:

I'm wishing for dead.

The world is a weight around my neck. Oh, oh. oh.

I'm wishing for dead.

If today's like tomorrow, let this end.