Alibis

From the scrapes and bruises

To the familiar abuses

I'll kick and scream

But it never changes anything

I could spill my guts out

Wearing my best little girl pout

I almost missed it

But nobody said this was gonna be easy

This is not the man

I hoped to be

And I'm just trying to stop the bleeding

I don't know how to word it

I just started to deserve it

And all my,all my faces are alibis, and me

I'm half the man

I wanted to be

Most times it comes out wrong

I don't know the words but

I'll hum along

There's nothing familiar here anymore

To anyone or anything enough to feel alive

And I still taste that sickness

And it makes me crazy without it at best

But I'm in the same place

I used to be

But I'm trying harder not to be

This is not the man

I hoped to be

And I'm just trying to stop the bleeding

I don't know how to word it

I just started to deserve it

And all my ,all my faces are alibis, and me

I'm half the man

I wanted to be

So what am I,what am I,so what am I

And all my

All my faces are alibis

This is not the man

I hoped to be

And I'm just trying to stop the bleeding

I don't know how the words go

I just started not to say no

Don't want it, don't get it

I know you won't regret it

Don't surface, don't surface

And I feel so damn worthless

Another day is gone

And all my faces are alibis ,all my faces are alibis and me

I'm half the man

I wanted to be