歌词
All this anxiety, I been getting like no sleep
焦虑让我无法入睡
Expectations from those who don't even know me
对那些不认识我的人还抱有期待
I been questioning if the struggle is worth it
我一直好奇这场战争是否值得
And becoming a totally different person
却完全变了一个人
Doing things I promised myself I'd of never done
做一些自己承诺过却没做过的事
Stare the devil in the face and I'd would never run
和恶魔四目相视我也不会退却
I'm just trying to be happy when it's all said and done
我只想在一切都结束的时候能够更开心一点
And not regret a damn thing the day that Heaven come
去天堂的那天不会留有遗憾
Drugs and money controlling everything in my life
药和钱控制了我的生活
Overthinking everything, just laying awake at night
想得太多，彻夜难眠
My heart is beating, I'm breathing, but never feel alive
心脏在跳动，我在呼吸，却感觉不到我在活着
No one really knows what's going on up in my mind
没人真的知道我的想法
Suicidal thoughts but I don't really want to die
有过自杀的想法，但并不是真的想死
I'm about to break down, I just want to cry
我快要崩溃了，我现在只想大哭一场
I been feeling like my life is really on the line
我一直觉得我的生命危在旦夕
If I said it, I meant it, I won't apologize
如果我说了，我是认真的，我不会道歉
Everyone around me dying
身边的每个人都在离我远去
Everyone around me lying
身边的每个人人都在撒谎
I could really use a sign
我真的想告诉你
I could really use a sign
我真的想让人知道
I don't really want to feel like this no more
我不想在这样下去了
I don't really want to live like this no more
我不想再这样生活
Everyone around me dying
身边的每个人都在离我远去
Everyone around me lying
身边的每个人人都在撒谎
I could really use a sign
我真的想告诉你
I could really use a sign
我真的想让人知道
I don't really want to feel like this no more
我不想在这样下去了
I don't really want to live like this no more
我不想再这样生活
Every day, use to pop pills, no one could stop me
每天嗑药，没人可以拦住我
Rest in peace Mac, what I'm saying, "Things almost got me"
安息吧Mac，我是说，“事情几乎让我崩溃”
I really wish instead of my cousin, that kid shot me
我真希望代替我的表兄，让那个人一枪杀了我
The ones that I trusted was the same ones that robbed me
我所信任的人正是那些反咬我一口的人
I'm not sad, I'm not happy, I just been getting by
我不悲伤，也不快乐，我只是勉强度日
Quit smoking for a while, lately been getting high
戒过烟一段时间，最近瘾又大了
Grew apart from my family, lost all my sanity
与家人分离，完全失去了理智
Reading tweets of people saying they "used to be a fan" of me
看到推特上有人说他们“曾是我的粉丝”
I did a lot of things, now I'm regretting it
我做了很多错事，现在我很后悔
Sick of giving money to all of these damn therapists
厌倦了给这些破治疗师钱
If I had a rewind button, I would be pressing it
如果我有一个倒带按钮，我一定会按下它
Every single minute I'm awake, I be stressing shit
我醒着的每一分钟都在给自己施加这该死的压力
They say they "love the old me", that makes two of us then
他们说他们“爱以前的我”，这让我们分道扬镳
Last couple years, I got used to losing my friends
过去的几年里，我已经习惯了失去朋友
Screw me over once, I know that you will do it again
耍我一次，我知道还会有第二次
And I'm the only one that lose in the end, damn
最后我是唯一的失败者，该死
I'm sick of talking, I don't even want to write this
我厌倦了谈论这个，我甚至不想写这个事
Had to make a song, I don't care if no one likes it
做我的歌，我才不在乎没人喜欢听
These my thoughts bottled up, this my therapy
这是被我压抑的想法，这是对我自己的治疗
I just wanted everyone to know before they bury me
我只是想我在被埋葬之前让每个人都知道
Everyone around me dying
身边的每个人都在离我远去
Everyone around me lying
身边的每个人人都在撒谎
I could really use a sign
我真的想告诉你
I could really use a sign
我真的想让人知道
I don't really want to feel like this no more
我不想在这样下去了
I don't really want to live like this no more
我不想再这样生活
Everyone around me dying
身边的每个人都在离我远去
Everyone around me lying
身边的每个人人都在撒谎
I could really use a sign
我真的想告诉你
I could really use a sign
我真的想让人知道
I don't really want to feel like this no more
我不想在这样下去了
I don't really want to live like this no more
我不想再这样生活
I don't want to feel like this
我不想再像这样了
I don't want to feel like this
我不想再像这样了
I don't want to live like this
我不想再这样活着了
I don't want to live like this
我不想再这样活着了
Everyone around me dying
身边的每个人都在离我远去
Everyone around me lying
身边的每个人人都在撒谎
I could really use a sign
我真的想告诉你
I could really use a sign
我真的想让人知道
I don't really want to feel like this no more
我不想在这样下去了
I don't really want to live like this no more
我不想再这样生活
Everyone around me dying
身边的每个人都在离我远去
Everyone around me lying
身边的每个人人都在撒谎
I could really use a sign
我真的想告诉你
I could really use a sign
我真的想让人知道
I don't really want to feel like this no more
我不想在这样下去了
I don't really want to live like this no more
我不想再这样生活
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