Never There

I thought of reaching out, we could take this slow

Hesitation turned to habit, never made the call

No branch to break my fall.

I’d have so much to tell you, but I:

Drink ’till I can’t blink

And I fill my brain with holes

My voice is worse for wear

Because I lost my self control

I’ve lost my hope

Now I don’t want to say I’m scared

Cause I don’t want you to think

That this life I slave away for

Is what brings an end to me

But now I’m walking through my life with a clenched up fist

Holding back the tears and feelings that I never spent

I try to find a purpose or a path to set

But I’ve only found the void and so I:

Drink ’till I can’t blink

And I fill my brain with holes

Because the place that I feel safest

It was never there

Never there at all