Broken

I wish that I could end this

but I'm too afraid to try

Afraid to try, and I wanna scream

I feel it in my lungs,

in every breath I take

In my bones, in my heart, with every smile I fake

The look of dead eyes, the fear, the lies and this disguise

And I feel it in my blood and it makes me numb

I wish that I could end this

but I'm too afraid to try

And I don't know what to say to you if you wanted to know why

I wish that things were easier but the stars are not aligned

And my heart can't survive

the pain let's me know that I'm alive

Something surrounding me

pulled under and I can't breathe

Reflections lie to me, I see what they don't see

The look of dead eyes, the fear, the lies and this disguise

And I feel it drowning me and I wanna scream

I wish that I could end this

but I'm too afraid to try

And I don't know what to say to you if you wanted to know why

I wish that things were easier but the stars are not aligned

And my heart can't survive

the pain let's me know that I'm alive

And I was broken

But now I'm standing on my own

a new moment to begin

The scars of our past don't have to hold us back

But I'm addicted to the way you make me feel and

I'll never understand, you'll never understand

(And I wanna scream)

I wish that I could end this

but I'm too afraid to try

And I don't know what to say to you if you wanted to know why

I wish that I could hate you but I cannot live a lie

And my heart can't survive (My heart can't survive)

I wanted to stop breathing but I'm too afraid to die

And I don't know what to say to you if you wanted to know why

And now everyone is telling me that I lost my mind

And if I tried to get me back I'm scared of what I'd find

I am broken